...right back to the start.

The Yarm 9, has left me in need of a day to recover, which means I've been too ill to want to move or eat, and eventually has made me snappy as hell from being inside and bored. I'm still off uni, which is getting tediously boring, because when it gets to evenings I'm either drinking too much or bored with not much to do. I love being home but I'm a great lover of personal space, and my room at home doesn't feel the same now; I love having nights and days on my own in Sheffield because of my little room, just nice to be on your own and comfortable really.
I'm looking to really act as if I live in Sheffield, not just that I go to university there, because I can't afford to keep coming back here. Also I feel that I haven't got to grips enough with the music scene or the actual nightlife. I mean I need to get myself a job, then I am self sufficient (atleast to an extent) then I can begin crossing off the list of clothes I will buy when I can afford anything.... This clothes buzz I have at the moment has not been helped by recieving a link to that lookbook site; I want to dress well in stuff that isn't high street, but isn't an eccentric vintage buzz either. Whilst on the topic, I have began growing a moustasche, which is obviously a really, really good idea...

The final point I wanted to make, was that, due to the insane amount of hangover's I have had recently, I have been regularly going out and drinking long enough to realise that I don't really want to get hammered anymore. Nights out seem expensive, but I guess they are because I insist on drinking more before, to save money when I'm out, which fails because I go out a state and drink my life away, then come close to death in my sleep. I'm happy and confident enough now to drink socially, unless it's a big occasion. My ideal plan would be a couple of drinks before heading out, a drink or so every half hour/an hour whilst I'm out, then go home soberish for a good sleep, and wake up feeling fine.



Basically, I want to look and act well, resulting in being cool as fuck - this is an unachievable aim, but it'd be epic.

My Joy Division phase is passing, not sure whats next though, Delphic probably when I buy their album off itunes later on.
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