I'm not entirely sure why I am going to keep this up ... think it just fills some time. I need to drink less, and I need to sort my head out. To think that a week ago things were so different, and then six weeks or so ago my life and my head were probably in some ways the opposite to what it is now.
University as in lectures etc are such a waste of three thousand and something pounds that I'm not going to have for a number of years away. I think I've decided to lighten up and get out, and enjoy things before it's too late, I am definately the most moody/happy 18 year old in the world ever.
I think I'm getting worse as a person, I seem to drift off and not talk to people at all, when they talk at me, and instead I just think about what I have to do in the day. More so I can never concentrate because things always snowball out of proportion, which doesn't help anyone.
Today I have dwelled, been hungover, not done enough work at uni, dwelled, complained about a hangover, looked forward to sleeping, dwelled, not showered, dwelled.
I'm struggling at the moment because I've always had a certain someone nearby for like three years, like a safety cusion. Never realised until I'm definately feeling lost, without the safety cusion.
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a grand start to the blog. keep it up, you inspired me to blog smash out one as well. have a gander, R x
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